No Escaping Your Fate [Closed]

[Lord Sesshomaru]

Tsuyoi frowned, listening to the quick summary of what had happened. Did that really happen? So maybe he hadn't humiliated himself as much as he thought. More then he would have sober, but it could have been worse. He could have showed his feelings for Kouhei. Now that would be bad. But there was something about the story that didn't seem right. Now, why would that make Kouhei avoid him?

"Then...you are angry?" he assumed. The shoes must have been expensive. That could be why the boy was avoiding him, but Kouhei didn't seem very angry now. It didn't make any sense.

[Birdie]

Kouhei blushed and shook his head. "Oh no! Not at all, senpai. My shoes cleaned up easily. My mom got curious though. I told her I got sick and Anja's house. I could never be mad at you. I just thought you might not want to see me. I couldn't face a person for a very long time if I did that." He said, staring at his book. Then he realized what he was saying and blushed. His eyes popped back up to Tsuyoi. "Not that I'm saying it's horrible. I just... Oh, why can't I ever say what I mean?" he lay his head on the table, obviously pouting from his own stupidity.

[Lord Sesshomaru]

Tsuyoi stared at Kouhei curiously, intensely. He was trying to figure this all out and seemingly was having a difficult time doing so. "You are acting as if it is you that did it." Getting sick on the boy's shoes might have been humiliating to himself, well, if only he could remember it. Even if he did, he wasn't the type to avoid because of such a thing. If anything, his pride would keep him from trying to make the incident a big deal. "You can stop avoiding me now that you know I do not care of whatever incident happened that night."

Why did Kouhei have to make such a big deal anyway? Tsuyoi thought to say more but the bell rang and the teacher entered, forcing him to move to his own seat. He wondered when the next moment will be when he could talk to the boy again.

[Birdie]

"Yeah..." he whispered as the bell rang. The teacher came in and lessons began. Class ended and lunch began (Can't remember how I had classes set up). Kouhei stood up from his desk. "Are we gonna eat on the roof again?" he asked Tsuyoi, brushing some pale, silvery hair from his face.

[Lord Sesshomaru]

Tsuyoi found himself unable to pay attention to the t eacher. Something bothered him about Kouhei's story, but he wasn't sure what. He guessed what bothered him the most is how Hatsuharu got in it. He was so deep in thought he didn't pay attention to the bell and dismissal until Kouhei spoke to him.

Tsuyoi stared at him for a moment, seemingly not going to answer before he stood up and grabbed his things. "Let's go." he said, taking the lead up to the roof. Through the hallway he still seemed so deep in thought, but he glanced toward the boy. "Are you happy?" Did Hatsuharu make Kouhei happy? He finally got his ideal. He didn't define it in his question so it was a little too vague. He didn't think about it.

[Birdie]

Happy? No.... Kouhei raised an eyebrow, a smile on his face as he pushed open the door to the roof. "Why wouldn't I be happy, Tsuyoi-senpai? I mean, You're here with me right?" He laughed a little as he walked out into the air. The slight breeze brushed passed him, tugging at his skirt, the loose sweater, and the loose, short strands of his hair. He sighed, feeling better up here already. He turned green eyes on Tsuyoi. "Why do you ask?"

[Lord Sesshomaru]

Tsuyoi walked past Kouhei onto the roof, making his way to the fence as he stared down onto the buildings and the street below. "No reason." he said, eyes narrowing onto a passing car. He placed his forehead against the cold metal of the fence. He linked his fingers through the loops of metal that made the fence.

"Something doesn't feel right, Kouhei. Why is that?" Just a gut feeling he had. A strange feeling. As if this was a different world, where things had gone wrong. Things weren't meant to be. He kept his forehead against the metal, looking at the boy from the corner of his eye. What was it he was missing?

[Birdie]

Something didn't feel right? A pained look crossed Kouhei's face for only a moment. Then he was all smiles again. "I don't know what you mean." [/b] He looked confused. "What doesn't feel right?" he came to stand beside Tsuyoi. He titled his head to the side, watching his sempai with worry.

[Lord Sesshomaru]

Tsuyoi opened his mouth, about to asnwer. But he changed his mind, and after a sigh he closed his mouth again, his jaw bone twitching slightly. A protest to himself in keeping something in. His answer:

You. Me. Us.

Tsuyoi moved away from the fence, leaning back a bit as he looked at Kouhei. He decided to go a different route. "Your answers." he said, staring at the younger boy. That too didn't seem right. Seemed more then his other thoughts on the 'not right' subject. There was something too there, something in him that nagged him. That nagging feeling that came out of nowhere, but always seemed to be around Kouhei.

Those answers seemed truthful, they did. He believed them...except that nagging feeling. As if he knew Kouhei more then he thought. More then he probably was supposed to. More then he could understand.

"What's wrong with your answers?"

[Birdie]

Kouhei.... felt wounded. He felt sick lying to Tsuyoi like this. His smile faltered. He seemed to draw back into himself. He stared at his feet. That desperate, upset look Tsuyoi was giving him... and the mere fact he couldn't tell the truth. Tsuyoi would be at war with himself if he knew... but wasn't he at war with himself now. The pale haired boy finally lifted his green eyes. Tears forced their way past. A bitter sweet smile formed itself on the feminine boy's lips. "My answers until now have been a lie. But the truth... the truth is even worse. I can't let you know... and yet... Yet I can't lie to you any longer. If I tell you, you will hate me... hate yourself... I think..."

Kouhei looked out at the tiny world below. Ant people laughing and rushing about. The wind teased his silver hair wildly about his face. He sighed. "Are you sure you wish to know, Tsuyoi-sempai?"

[Lord Sesshomaru]

The reaction of Kouhei really surprised him. Tsuyoi stared, jaw clenched and the overwhelming emotions in the situation almost drowned him. The hermetic emotions and expressions. Almost given away by the tears of a boy and the statement of lies. He was suddenly tense, and nervous, and somehow; just somehow afraid. Fear of what was given away. Why? When did her become ascertain on the subject the lies were based on. Something in him told Tsuyoi what it was.

It definitely had to do with him getting drunk. Did he do more then what Kouhei had told before? It wasn't something the older male could reminisc about. Trying to only gave him a headache. He didn't seem to reply for a long time, but he knew his answer. He didn't want to know, he knew that. But he would anyway. He needed to know. Tsuyoi didn't know what to do with the information when given to him. Surely it couldn't be as bad as Kouhei made it seem. The boy's tears was what really made him nervous about what the truth was.

That wouldn't stop him from knowing though. "Yes." he finally answered. He looked into the boy's eyes, and as Tsuyoi did, he almost forgot the subject, his answer, and everything else. Those large green eyes, misted over with tears, glistening and glazed over. And for a moment, he forgot the 'truth'. He just wanted Kouhei to be happy again...

Or had that been a lie to?

[Birdie]

Kouhei bit his lower lip. How should he put it. There was really only one way. And yet, it seemed like such a cruel, heartless way to tell someone. And Kouhei couldn't help but feel as if he might loose this person forever. He brought his hand to his upper arm, pulling it closer to his side. His toes pointed inward slightly. Those things were forms of nervousness, introvert emotions.

He took a deep breath and, "youkissedme." He said it quickly, as if he were attempting to get the words out as one pulls off a band-aid. Fast so that the pain would not last as long. He realized that Tsuyoi probably couldn't understand his ridiculously fast sentence so he repeated it, slower. "When you were drunk. You kissed me." He stared at his feet, awaiting something. Would Tsuyoi walk away or stand about in the stoic way like usual? he definitely wouldn't laugh it off. That wasn't something Tsuyoi did.

"I shouldn't have gone... at least, not with you. I should have turned them down." he choked through his sobs. Tsuyoi would be uncomfortable around him now. Most guys did. He would go away and the only thing that scared Kouhie at that moment was seeing Tsuyoi's back and knowing he'd never look at his face again.

[Lord Sesshomaru]

The reply Tsuyoi got was unexpected. Was surprising; shocking even. Kouhei was lying again. But why? Why about this? Why make up something like that? He sighed, leaning up against the fence. He could feel the metal against his back through his shirt and he closed his eyes. He was drunk enough to lose all control...and kiss Kouhei. It was easier to believe then expected. Great...and Kouhei had tried to hide it. Tsuyoi Seishuku, the heir to a powerful company, known for his control of emotions, being cautious of his actions to keep his public appearance the way he wished it.

And that Tsuyoi Seishuku, got drunk and kissed another guy. Remembering his public appearance, he opened one eye, to glance at Kouhei even though it was hard to do. "Did anyone see?" The older male couldn't help but let his gaze drop to the other's lips. He had kissed those. What had it been like? Was it a simple peck, or did he come on too strong? Did Kouhei kiss him back, or push him away?

Tsuyoi looked away quickly, forcing himself away from the questions and thoughts and the look of the lips he couldn't remember kissing. And almost wished he did. He must have looked like a fool! Drunk, and kissing some guy! Ending up at a hotel...of all places. What if he had gone farther? The thought made him shudder. And he wished it was of disgust. But what it was...was the thought of doing something so horrible to Kouhei. Could Kouhei act normal if that had happened. He forced himself to look at the boy again. "At the hotel...nothing else happened, did it? Did I take advantage of you?" The thought made his blood boil. How is it possible to want to beat himself up like all those bastards that had used Kouhei before?

[Birdie]

Yeah, he expected Tsuyoi to act like that. He was all cool and calm and even. He never acted as if he were bothered by this news, not really. This only made Kouhei even more nervous. He glanced up at Tsuyoi again when a question was asked. He thought about it for a moment before replying. "Ah... I don't think so," he said. "It was more or less deserted. The only people around were either very drunk or too preoccupied with their companions to even glance at a boy kissing someone." He didn't mention that it would have looked completely out of place, as Kouhei had looked extremely feminine that day... as he did most days. Tsuyoi didn't like his cross-dressing.

That seemed to satisfy his sempai. So he stared off at the ant people below. He seemed to resign into himself when an extremely shocking question was asked. Kouhei's eyes widened as Tsuyoi stared down at him. "No... No, nothing like that." he calmed down. Sex? With Tsuyoi? The thought was delicious and new... Sure he'd thought about kissing Tsuyoi, touching him, but he'd never gone further than that. Oh, the innocence of first love. "You asked me to stay. You clung to my shirt sleeve, I think. So I stayed until you fell asleep and..." He paused, about to say something else. But he wasn't sure if he should have said it. Now he couldn't stop. Tsuyoi would inevitably ask what the and was. "You said a girl's name... I think. Brig... Brigantia?" The name came naturally from his mouth. It was almost as if it belonged to him.

But no, that was wrong. That was not his name. He was Mitska Kouhei. Nothing more, nothing less. "Who is she?" he inquired softly. "Ah, if you'd rather not tell me..." He didn't want to pry. Half of him didn't want to know if he had a thing for someone else.

[Lord Sesshomaru]

Tsuyoi sighed, closing his eyes. Relieved. He was relieved. No one had seen that could spread the news of Seishuku kissing another guy. He was more relieved to know he hadn't done anything else to Kouhei. He hated not remembering though. A part of his life that he had no control over. It irked him. He barely reacted to the small summary of what happened at the hotel. He didn't need the details, he had gotten his answers so he didn't need to know anything else. He continued to lean against the fence, eyes closed as he thought. What was he going to do now? Knowing he had kissed Kouhei. What was there to do? The only real option was to continue their lives as if it hadn't happened. But knowing it had made it difficult. He still imagined what the feel would be like...

Eyes opening, he glanced at Kouhei again with the question asked. He frowned ever so slightly, and mulled over the name. Brigantia. Sounded oddly familiar, and the strange emotions it stirred confused him more. Once again, the nagging feeling had come back; He recovered quickly. "I don't know. I've never heard that name before."