Catch Me If you Can [Sesshomaru]

[Birdie]

Kouhei woke, hours later, to find that Tsuyoi was gone and that he had passed out. A flush spread over his cheeks. He slowly got out of his bed and went down stairs. His mother was sin the kitchen, making dinner. "Did you have to give me the one's that make me fall asleep." He asked. His mother jumped and placed a hand to her heart.

"Don't sneak up on me like that. Shouldn't you be in bed?"

"Mom...."

"Oh, no, I suppose not, but that boy sort of gave me the creeps." His mother shivered violently to prove her point. Kouhei groaned.

"He's not horrible mom... When's dinner gonna be done?"

"Soon. just go up stairs and go back to bed. I'll bring it up to you." kouhei frowned and sulked the entire time.


Before he knew it four days had passed and his mother finally let him out of the bed. of course it was Saturday and Kouhei had to start his part time job. He would have to start paying that boy back for the object he had broken. She stared at himself in the mirror. he placed the hat over his silky silver tresses and gave a small nod to show that he was content with appearance.

He left the house, his mother fretting that her son might faint on the job. His father drove him to the coffee shop and Kouhei officially started. He entered the work place to find that there was not a breathing soul in sight. He moved behind the counter and found the manager. he smiled warmly and walked Kouhei through all the steps. Kouhei nodded and learned quickly. Soon enough customers came and kouhei served them with cute smiles and excellent coffee. Kouhei had the magic touch when he came to food.
((I gotta go to bed. nighty night love!))

[Lord Sesshomaru]

After that day at Kouhei's house Tsuyoi's routine had gone back to normal. School, coffee shop, home. He only went to the coffee shop on rare occasions but it seemed he had gotten into a fight with his parents and they decided to disconnect the wifi connection they had in the house. How odd, for the fight was about his time he spent with them. And now, he spent even more time out of the house. His parents were so stupid. They should be lucky enough he came home at night. If he wanted, he could easily leave the house and never come back. He guessed that scared them sometimes. The reason why his parents gave him money so that he wouldn't need a job and end up independant. Once again, a rediculous thought for he was already saving the money they gave him to buy himself his own apartment.

Tsuyoi smiled to himself as he made his way to the coffee shop for the fourth time, once every day. He was surprised to see, not only Kouhei out of bed, but working hard at his usual coffee shop. He stared at the boy for a moment as he entered the coffee shop. He watched the boy run this way and that doing as he was told and smiling that rediculous smile of his. Calling it rediculous was how Tsuyoi found Kouhei's smile to be as of late. Why, he did not know. He was sure that the chosen word did not fit but he was too stubborn to call it anything else.

"Well, what a coincidence." he muttered to himself, going to his usual seat and taking out his laptop, as usual. He had been here recently enough that the other customers stopped staring at him as they usually did when he entered the shop. So, he assumed this was Kouhei's new part time job to pay him back. He felt a little bad forcing the boy to get a work. He might just feint again...wait, why the hell did he care? He could feint out all he wanted! There was no reason to feel guilty when it was his hard drive he had broken!

[Birdie]

He smiled happily at the young man he was working with. They were at a slower hour and so they could just sit back and chat. The other male, Haru, was a very nice guy. He was tall, dark haired and lightly muscled. Kouhei liked this type of guy. He was like his older brother. Kouhei grinned up at Haru. "So, you just started college right?" Kouhei gently scrubbed at a spoon with his white towel. he liked to make sure such things were really clean. He set it down and Haru handed him another wet spoon. Kouhei dried it and inspected it before setting it with the others.

"That's right." Haru replied. "You just started High school?"

"Mmmhm."

"What are you doing working? A cute kid like you should be at home or hanging out with friends."

"I've got to pay a guy back. But it's okay, really. I want to start saving up so I can get into a good college. I heard there's an amazing one for cooking just up north."

"That's your dream then?" He watched Kouhei's enthusiastic nod. He had to admit that Kouhei was adorable, easy to over power and the type you wanted to protect. "Hey, after work you wanna go somewhere? Maybe karaoke?"

Kouhei brightened noticeably. "Really? That's be great!"

"Excuse me?" Some one called at the counter. Kouhei jumped and waved going to help the customer. Once the lady was served Kouhei noticed a familiar face.

"Seishuku-senpai!" He moved from around the counter and stood just beside the elder male's table. "I didn't know you came to this place! It's great to see you. Sorry about falling asleep on you last time. My mom doesn't really like you. But then she hardly likes any of my male friends." Kouhei shrugged. "Ah. I gotta get back to work. See ya at school on Monday." He waved and went back to help the next customer.

Kouhei chatted idly with the business man who kept eying the poor lad's behind whilst Kouhei made the coffee. Kouhei handed it over and listened to something the man said with a slightly stunned expression. He flushed and fiddled with his apron, then smiled apologetically. The business man laughed and ruffled Kouhei's hair. Kouhei laughed too, still blushing furiously. The business man then leaned forward and whispered something in Kouhei's ear. Kouhei's eyes widened, the flush grew more pronounced and he nodded. The business man paid and went to sit at the table, watching as cute Kouhei recovered and served other customers.

[Lord Sesshomaru]

Tsuyoi couldn't help but keep an eye on Kohei. Why, he didn't know but he didn't question what he was doing. He assumed he had a good reason but did not try and contemplate over it further. He just knew, that as he would typer or search a site his eyes would move away from the screen and toward the working boy. The more he watched the more he realized how easy it was for Kouhei to make friends. How? He didn't understand it. What was it about that short boy that made him so easy to become friends with? The smile, those bright green eyes...? Wait, did that other worker just ask him to karaoke?! Only someone gay would ask another guy out to karaoke. His eyes narrowed at the thought. He never realized it, but he did now that Kouhei was vulnerable, and easy to take advantage of. He closed his eyes tightly when he realized the next thing he was seeing in his mind was gay sex. That was just...disgusting!

Luckily Tsuyoi didn't have that rediculous look on his face when Kouhei noticed him. The sudden calling of his last name took him by surprise, however, and he was very irritated that Kouhei noticed him. Now, was he irritated that he just noticed him, or only noticed him twenty minutes later? He'd rather not find out. He leaned against his chair, bringing his hands away from the keyboard as he looked up at the boy from his sitting position. Automatically he was blabbering about worthless stuff. Did he even take a chance to breath? Faster then Tsuyoi realized, he was done talking and was walking off. Not even giving him enough time to say his own farewell. He was thankful that Kouhei did not give him a chance to, for he would regret speaking such a thing he normally ignored.

Even after Tsuyoi's small encounter with Kouhei his eyes would still find the boy, no matter where he went to as he typed away, not even looking at what he was typing. He loved such a skill of typing. What really got his attention was when Kouhei started speaking to that business men. Why? Why did it always have to be the business men that were such perverts! He didn't even have to guess what they said, he knew it must have been suggestive! And the way the man was looking at Kouhei's...

Tsuyoi turned away before his eyes were drawn to the same area. It didn't matter. No, it didn't matter at all who decided to flirt with Kouhei. He shouldn't get so worked up about something so pointless. He glanced toward Kouhei one last time before making a huge effort to keep his eyes on the screen of his laptop, realizing that last few sentences were his thoughts, and not what he truly wanted to type. He sighed, deleting the sentences before having a strange urge for an eclair. He knew they had some, all coffee shops had a few pastries. But it would just seem rediculous to order an eclair.

((I love eclairs and I want one right now!!! XD oh, wait, I have some))

[Birdie]

((*Sticks out tongue* I want ice cream. It's sooooo hot))

Kouhei busied himself with wiping the counter off. That business man... He said some weird things. He had offered Kouhei so much money! He wasn't sure if he could go through with the whole thing though. His face was still that same bright red when Haru came up beside him. He noticed the blush. He watched as Kouhei lifted his face. Such large, cute eyes. He just wanted to hug the kid. How could any boy look so cute! He gently placed a hand against Kouhei's forehead. "Don't over work yourself, okay?" Kouhei nodded and Haru grinned.

"Just three more hours, neh?" He jabbed his thumb toward the clock on the opposite wall. Kouhei smiled. He felt much better if he didn't think about what he had agreed to do later that night. It wasn't as if it had ever been his first time. Something happened a long time ago, in America.... He shook his head, not wanting to think about it.

"Yeah, I can't wait." Kouhei smiled brightly and threw himself back into his work. He found this job so much fun. Making different types of coffee appealed to the boy.

Eventually it was time for Haru and Kouhei to pack up. The next shift came in to relieve them and the two hung up their aprons and left their hats in little cubbies.

Haru lead Kouhei out by his hand. Kouhei laughed saying something about feeling like a little kid again. Anya used to lead him about like that.

Kouhei and Haru entered the Karaoke place and were soon in the room.

"I'll sing first!" He picked up the book and shuffled through the pages before he found a little lullaby his mother would sing to him. It was so old and obsolete it was a wonder it was even int he book. He punched the number in and the song started.

His soft voice filled the room. He closed his eyes. Haru watched, transfixed. When the song ended Haru hugged Kouhei. "SO CUTE!" Kouhei blushed.

"Anou... thank you Haru-san." Haru laughed.

"Just Haru is fine."

"Really! Then you can just call me Kouhei!"

"Deal."

It had been a while since Kouhei had done this with anyone but he found it very fun. He considered bringing Anya and friends here. It had been so long.

Suddenly he felt lips pressed against his. Kouhei's eyes widened. Haru was kissing him? He closed his eyes and leaned forward. Arms wrapped around his waist. He gasped as the lips trailed down his neck. Kouhei whimpered and shivered. In his mind the only thing that was running through his head were thoughts of Seishuku-senpai. Would this be what it felt like if he did those things to him? He shivered again. Haru seemed to like this reaction, but stopped this after a little bit.

"Sorry.... I was.... testing myself. You see... I wanted to forget this other guy... but it seems I haven't."

Kouhei's eyes widened and then he smiled sweetly. "It's okay. To tell the truth I was thinking of some one else too."

"You're a lot like him, you know... My ex. Take it as a compliment."

"Okay, I will."

"Wanna sing again? I won't touch you.... so..."

Kouhei glanced at his watch. "I can't. I have to go some where else."

"Okay."

"I hope things work out between you too." Kouhei kissed Haru's cheek, waved, then left. Haru's mind was spinning. How could anyone be so sweet? His last boyfriend was so needy. Maybe trying to catch Kouhei wouldn't' be a bad thing. He shook his head. Kouhei was thinking of some one else. He couldn't. He left, paying for the session.

Kouhei wandered down the streets until he came to a hotel. He looked up at the sign. He knew what kind of place this was. There was no way he couldn't. He sighed softly and entered. He was doing it again. Why was he such a horrible person. He brought has hand to his forehead. This type of place was where it had happened before...

He felt an arm wrap around his shoulder. "Shall we?" the man asked. Kouhei's face was flushed once again.

"Y-yes..." The man smiled and brought Kouhei up some stairs. Kouhei went through with it. He just had to allow another piece of him to take over. It wasn't Kouhei there. No... It was a different person. Another Kouhei. This Kouhei knew what was happening. This Kouhei did things he shouldn't. This Kouhei moaned and gasped and moved. When Kouhei came back to reality his body was hurt and bruised all over. He had hickeys on his neck, chest, arms and inner thighs. He moaned softly and his fingers touched another body. He smiled down at Kouhei. "You were good." the man said. Kouhei gasped and blushed. He was looking rightfully ashamed. Which pleased the man. "What would you say if I asked you to do it again?" Kouhei nodded numbly as the man brushed a kiss over his jawline. And it did happen again. Kouhei the other Kouhei came out. And when Kouhei awoke again he was alone with double the amount laying in a suitcase on the bed next to him. He would be late coming home. He closed the suitcase and got dressed. He carried it out and went home. By the time he got in the house it was nine. His mother was worried sick. Kouhei smiled and told his mother he had just gone out with some friends. He told her the suitcase was some mangas a friend had lent to him. His mother believed him. Her Kouhei could do know wrong.

But Jun knew. As he stood there washing his brother trudge up the stairs and to his room he knew. It had happened in America. It was happening again...


Monday came around and Kouhei made sure to dress in long sleeves and a high collar shirt, despite the warm weather. He took the right amount of money from the suit case and pocketed it.

He sat in the English classroom, studying the notes. He jumped up when Tsuyoi came in. He remembered the things he had thought on saturday.... when that man violated him.... when Haru kissed him. He closed his eyes and sighed. When he stood up he was wearing his usual fake smile. He gently set down the money on his senpai's desk. "Here. You're paid back in full, with some interest. I hope it's enough." He rubbed that back of his head. "Sorry about everything Seishuku-senpai."

[Lord Sesshomaru]

Tsuyoi had spent the rest of the day with this odd feeling in his chest. A very odd feeling. Like something was happening and he should know what it was, or he should do something about it. He found himself wandering through the down town all day. There was something here. There was something he was supposed to do. Something, screaming, in the back of his head and he couldn't get it out no matter what he did to distract himself. Even with the stupidest things like singing a song in his head, or counting numbers. Nothing.

Finally, at ten o'clock at night the voice seemed to disapear, leaving him disappointed with himself for not figuring it out. He came home, and no one even realized he had left. The next morning he went to school, still there was a nagging feeling. A feeling of that disappointment which still would not leave him. Soon, he found himself in English class not even remembering how he got there. By that time, the feeling suddenly stopped, and he was finally back to normal, or, as normal as he usually felt. He sat down, and Kouhei placed something on his desk. At first, he hadn't been paying attention for he was noticing the odd way Kouhei was wearing his clothes. Was it cold outside? No, not the last time he knew. Finally, his eyes fell on the money placed in front of him. His went through it, shocked at how much there was. How did he get so much money so fast? He knew the minimum wage at that coffee shop was not even close to this much, and he hadn't worked there long enough!

"Where did you get this money?" he asked, highly curious as that nagging feeling seemed to catch up to him.

[Birdie]

Kouhei frowned. "Ah... I got it from a some friends. They'll let me pay them back slowly and stuff. I wanted to get you all your money." He smiled again. There was so much sweetness on his face it was hard to imagine him doing those things he did last night. He bowed to his senpai, his hair slipping around his neck, revealing a small, darkish spot on his skin just below his ear. He stood straight again and waved to Tsuyoi before going back to his seat.

Jun moved across the room in a couple of strides and slammed his hand down on Kouhei's desk. "You did no such thing. Where did you get the money Kou-chan."

Kouhei looked up at his brother with watery eyes. "Why don't you believe me?" Tears spilled onto his cheeks. Nana came over and pulled Jun away.

"Come now, don't accuse your brother of those things."

"You don't understand. This sort of thing happened in America too. He would start wearing winter type clothes. He would suddenly have a lot of cash. He claims to be going over to a friend house after school. I know he isn't. Help me Nana. We're gonna trail him..." Of course, they happened to be saying this not too far away from Tsuyoi.

[Lord Sesshomaru]

Tsuyoi tried his best to take into consideration on what Kouhei said to explain himself. A friend. When did he know such a rich friend that would just give up money? He glanced toward the money he now had in his hand before back up at Kouhei. His eyes landing on the dark spot on his neck. His eyes widened for a moment, his mind thinking over on what it was. It didn't take long for him to realize it but he still doubted himself. He didn't say anything, though. It was none of his business, right? Kouhei could have gotten that anywhere, right? He stared at his desk, keeping his eyes away from the boy and trying not to think of the reasons behind just a mark.

But Tsuyoi could not do it. He was being given more information by Jun. He listened in, sitting in his desk casually as he made himself as uninteresting as possible. It was very interesting, what they said. The hints he was pointing out suddenly made Tsuyoi realize something. And all of a sudden he did not want to money given to him. In fact, he felt as if he was burned by the very paper itself. He tried not to make it noticable as he placed it on the desk.

That was when it all clicked into place. "That business man..." he began, interrupting their conversation as he turned his head to look at the group from the corner of his eye. "You accepted his offer, didn't you?" he said, getting up from his seat and grabbing the money again. He didn't want it, there was no way he would accept such a thing. He tried not to let his anger show. It made him angry, he did not know why. Kouhei had the right to do as he pleased. But...

"Take it." he said, placing the money back on Kouhei's desk. "I don't want it." he said, glaring at the money he had placed down. "I had expected..." he stopped himself. What reason did he to scold Kouhei? To tell his own opinion? He wasn't his father, his brother, he had no right. Without another word he turned and left the classroom and didn't plan to come back before the bell rang.

[Birdie]

Kouhei jumped as the money was placed on his desk. He looked up with his large, watery jade eyes. Tsuyoi was and at him. Tsuyoi was scolding him. He didn't like it. His lower lip trembled. He felt so weak. He took the money and studied it. What had Tsuyoi expected? Of course he had accepted the offer. Tsuyoi left and his heart hurt so much. Kouhei stood, abruptly, and left the room as well. His bag was slung over his shoulder. He climbed the stairs until he was on the roof.

Kouhei dropped his bag and moved over to the fence. He climbed it til he sat on the very top of it. He spread his arms out to greet the wind. It swished around his body, throwing his hair around his face. "Tsu... yoi...." he murmured to himself. He did he think about Tsuyoi so much? Tsuyoi wasn't even nice to him. Tsuyoi didn't seem to care all that much for him. Could he be wrong? Kouhei didn't know. All he understood was that he hurt so much. Not only the bruises on his body. His entire being. His whole soul. It hurt so much. He brought ha hand to grip his heart. He then moved it up to his forehead. He better get down before he fainted and fell off the building. He did just that. He jumped back down onto the roof, where his knees gave way. He didn't faint he just couldn't quite move. Tears suddenly spilled from his eyes. The rolled non-stop down his pale cheeks. He brought a hand up in an attempt to wipe them away. it didn't work. His shoulder began to shake as he sobbed.

[Lord Sesshomaru]

Tsuyoi didn't know exactly where to go after his outburst. He just knew he couldn't stay in the same room with Kouhei, with any of them for that matter. He was too emberassed with what he had said, to interfere like that. He shouldn't care. The only thing he should care about was that money. Oh, how angry he was to hold that money, when his mind was plaqued what how Kouhei got the money. To think, he was doing such things. The boy had not seemed like the type, but he guessed he didn't have any right to judge. He should be able to do as he wished, then why was Tsuyoi so angry, so upset? It shouldn't matter.

But here he was, stuck by himself, not able to go back to class or else make a big fuss about being late. He'd rather just skip class then face those three for saying things he normally would never say. For being so angry. Did he not have control over himsefl anymore? He sighed, finding that wandering the hallways was not calming, or helping him at all. Maybe he needed fresh air? That sounded nice. Tsuyoi let out a deep breath, making his way to the roof. The best place for solitude at school.

Sadly, Tsuyoi wouldn't be gettting solitude as he wanted. No, for he had to run into the person he was pretty much avoiding. Kouhei. He was sobbing on the floor. But why? Was he ashamed? Did Jun yell at him afterwords? He didn't think that his words could have done anything. They were not even friends, so it shouldn't matter what he said. Tsuyoi stared at the fallen boy, on the ground and crying his heart out. He frowned, closing the door to the roof as he instinctly made his way to Kouhei. He didn't know what he was doing. What he did know was that he wanted it to stop. Those tears, Kouhei's pain, all of it. Why couldn't it just stop? He didn't like it. He didn't like seeing it. But instead of going back inside all he was doing was getting closer to what he didn't like seeing.

Tsuyoi found himself kneeling at Kouhei's side, reaching out with his hand. To do what? He didn't know, but his body did and he watched, almost as if another person was reaching out toward the boy. He didn't know what he was doing, but he just went with it. His hand found Kouhei's arm and he gripped him gently before bringing him into an embrace.

Stop it. Make it stop. Tsuyoi didn't know who he was begging to in his mind, but he had to plead to something, he had to do something. And he was. He was doing something he had never done before. Never had he held someone else so close. Never had he breathed in the scent of someone else's hair, felt the heat of another person's body. Or maybe he had. Just a time he had decided to forget.

[Birdie]

Kouhei felt strong, powerful arms wrap around his body. For an instant he had a flash of a different person during a different time holding a body that was his but not his. The soon disappeared and Kouhei was clinging to this person. He knew who it was. He felt so relieved that perhaps Tsuyoi wasn't quite as mad as he had seemed. Kouhei's tiny body was shivering, tears continued to pour non-stop. This was all too familiar for his liking. It felt as if he had been held by this man a thousand times over. It felt as if he had heard this same breathing pattern, heard this same voice a thousand times. The crying seemed to stop. But Kouhei didn't want to let go just yet.

"S-sorry senpai..." he sniffed softly. He moved slightly in Tsuyoi's arms so he could look up at the elder male's face. "I didn't mean to make you mad..." Then he did something he felt he had done a million times before. He couldn't stop it. He just did it. He placed his fingers against his lips then gently touched them to Tsuyoi's.

Kouhei gasped and drew his hand back. His face was flushed a deep red. "S-sorry. I don't know what came over me." He began to nibble on his lower lip. It was a nervous gesture he had since birth. He couldn't help it.

[Lord Sesshomaru]

Tsuyoi was silent as he held the crying boy whom clung to him. There was nothing he was supposed to say, nothing he was supposed to do but this. He felt as if he had done this many times over. And yet this was the first time he held another person so close. He waited, and it seemed like forever that he held Kouhei until he was done crying. He felt as if it was his duty to do something. He was supposed to be here, with Kouhei. And in his mind he was the only one that was allowed to do this. This possessive nature did not fit Tsuyoi for he had never felt that way before. For a second, his hold on the boy tightened but he loosened his hold as Kouhei moved in his arms. Finally, it seemed he had stopped crying. The feeling that kept his arms around the boy left him, but he didn't put his arms back at his side. He would do so when Kouhei pulled away, but the boy did not seem to be in any hurry.

Tsuyoi frowned just a little at what Kouhei said. So it was what he said that brought this boy to come up to the roof and cry his eyes out. Great, just great. He had barely said a thing! He didn't even yell, or truly even scold him. But he guessed that Kouhei had gotten the vibe. Damn, so it was his fault. He didn't have time to truly rant in his head. No, he was watching Kouhei. What was he doing? He blinked, suddenly having Kouhei's kissed fingers against his lips. Tsuyoi stared at him, shocked by the sudden action and did not know what to do about it. Apart of him wanted to smile, apart of him wanted to push Kouhei away. Those actions seemed to mix together and he only found himself looking away, a slightly annoyed look on his face as he tried to hide his emberassment.

After all, Tsuyoi was only a human and some expressions he just couldn't hide. A hundred years of practice might have helped.

[Birdie]

Kouhei pulled back so he sat directly across from Tsuyoi. "I'm really sorry. I didn't mean... Don't be upset...." he trailed off and began to nibble on his thumb nail. His large jade eyes studied the roof top. He didn't really know what to say. The silence was killing him, eating away at him. Then he remembered. "I finished the project. I know we have all semester to work on it, but I had so much free time when I stayed home fr those three days.. Here's your copy." He went to his bag, then brought back a hand written note book. About fifty pages were filled in perfect English with the report. He sat back again. It was enough away that Tsuyoi could easily reach him but also so that that Kouhei wasn't invading his space bubble.

"I understand what I did was really weord... and you're not like that... So you don't have to worry about it happening again. And I'll just pay you back with the money I make from the coffee shop. I understand that it must be kind of gross to receive money from that kind of job... To own to the truth I don't do it because of the money... Ah... here I am going on and on about nothing again. Sorry." He smiled sweetly. His fake smile. The one that made everyone thing he was all right. The one that didn't quite reach his soft jade eyes. "You most probably don't want to know anything about my pitiful life. Sorry to bother you senpai."

Kouhei bowed then started across the roof until he stood by the fence again. He knit his fingers into the holes of the wires. He closed his eyes, his short, silvery hair flying about his head.

[Lord Sesshomaru]

Tsuyoi willed himself not to blush. Luckily it seemed that his annoyed face had hidden his emberassment succesfully. But he was not disgusted in himself to blush at such an action. He found it completely excusable to find himself...attracted to Kouhei. He was so much like a girl that he could understand the straightest of guys looking at the boy in interest. He found it completely fine...okay, not really. Just more then he would have thought. Kouhei was cute, sweet Kouhei. Normally he would put in 'innocent' to that list of adjectives for someone like Kouhei, but with the recent information he had recieved, there was no way he could think of the boy in that way again. Still, it bothered him on what Kouhei had done, when it was truly none of his business.

Tsuyoi brought himself out of his own mind by listening to what Kouhei was saying. He had already apologized about him being upset, emberassed to be exact. Ah, and it seemed he had completed the project. Tsuyoi took his copy and went through the pages, truly impressed. Of course, he wouldn't say anything about it. Maybe he should say thank you...

Tsuyoi changed his mind and listened as Kouhei continued to speak. Yes, it had been wierd with the affectionate action. Cute, yet truly unnecessary for their relationship. He couldn't even see them as friends much less...whatever relation they had to be for that to be allowed. And yes, he wasn't like that. Not at all. He was not gay...although he never questioned himself on what gender he was attracted to. Really, he couldn't give a completely confident answer to any of it. He did his best to pay attention to what Kouhei was saying, but most of it was just him talking about nothing.

'To own to the truth I don't do it because of the money...'

It was that phrase that truly got Tsuyoi's attention, and it could be seen in his eyes. A flash in those yellowish eyes of his as he processed those words. He wanted to know why. He wanted to tell Kouhei what he thought. Tell him not to do it, there was no reason to...tell him...what? How could he phrase what he thought in words that did not seem like he cared? Well, maybe that was impossible. Because maybe, he did happen to care. Only a little though, of course. Tsuyoi stared at Kouhei even when he was done speaking and went to the fence.

There was something about Kouhei...that smile, those words, that nagged at his insides. This insanable nagging. He was silent for a long moment. Well, he had been silent this whole time. He barely spoke, it seemed. Slowly he made his way to Kouhei before he stood beside the boy, before turning and allowing his back to lean against the fence.

"You can bother me all you want with your pitiful life." Good, he was getting somewhere with his thoughts. He was saying them aloud. Tsuyoi did not dare to look at Kouhei as he spoke. It would probably ruin it, then he would never get out what he wanted to say. "If you don't do it for the money, then why do you do it?" he was getting more confident the more he spoke, and he finally looked toward Kouhei.

[Birdie]

Kouhei lifted his chin. His large eyes stared up st Tsuyoi. The older male was looking down at something. Not at him. Kouhei didn't mind this. His entire mind was intent on he words. Kouhei blushed and looked back out at the courtyard. His fingers tightened on the fence. So he id want to know about this. Why would anybody? it seemed to odd that anyone outside of his family could care. But he wanted to tell Tsuyoi. He wanted to tell this guy h didn't really know everything.

After a moment Kouhei turned to look back up at Tsuyoi who was also looking at him. He blushed even more and nearly drew back, but did not. "I do it because I'm lost..." his voice trailed off, then he laughed. "Ah... perhaps i should start from the beginning. It's a rather long story." Kouhei sat down at the edge of he fence, also leaning his back against that object.

"I lived in America for approximately five years of my life. That would be from the time I was nine until I was thirteen. In the last year I started hanging out with this guy. He was the most beautiful person I had ever met. And here was so much danger about him... but he was so gentle with me.... I was practically this man's dog. I did anything he asked, when ever. Then, one day, I was alone with him. He put his arm around my shoulder. He took me inside of a hotel. It was here where my slavery was completed. I became a toy of sorts with him. No matter what he did he was gentle with me though. it was almost as if he thought I would break. But it felt so wrong at the same time. It was as if I was betraying someone. I don't know who. I've never been in love with anyone." Kouhei drew his knees to his chest. "He asked me to come to that hotel after school one day. he said he could come in a little late. So I went. While I was waiting a group of men also entered. They looked around until they saw me. I guess the thought I was something else. They dragged me up those stairs an into a bed room. They..." His entire body was shaking now. His features were pained. Tears spilled from his large jade eyes. They looked unfocused. It was as if he were reliving everything. "They did so many thing to me. My body was so bruised, some of my bones were broken. But there was money.... I knew now why they did it. I knew what they thought I was... Anyway, When I came down he was standing there. He took one look at me and he thought I had betrayed him. it was a week before he cooled down enough for me to explain. He disappeared for about a month. When he came back I knew what he had done. he searched for those men and he beat them with in an inch of their lives. He wasn't gentle any longer. I think he was frustrated because I was taken by a different man than he." Kouhei shrugged. "But after that I became a little lost. I couldn't quite remember who i really was. I felt so wrong. I was a girl inside of a man's body. And so, because I felt this body wasn't mine, I let other people borrow it. I didn't care about the money. And he found out about my job. And he hurt me. He almost killed me. He didn't want anyone else to have me. Jun saved me though. And we moved directly back to this place. But It seems like I've gotten a little lost again." He chuckled and closed his eyes. He then turned those Jade eyes on Tsuyoi.

"You know, I have never really done anything like that. When ever that sort of thing happens I sort of... fall asleep. I'm not there anymore. A different me takes a hold. I wake up and it's all over." Kouhei shrugged.