Tour guide to the future

[Lord Sesshomaru]

Sesshomaru narrowed his eyes at Ben, something he seemed to do a lot with the human boy. 'Ignorance is bliss'. Yes, he knew of that saying. Was this little worthless human calling him ignorant? It didn't take a genius to figure that was exactly the case. He glared at him, but didn't say a word, since there was nothing he could truly say. How could Ben say that he 'poke, prod and disect' everything he said, if this was the first time that Sesshomaru had ever truly questioned him about what he said. He still wished to have the boy answer, but something told him that those words weren't as important as the demon lord had firs thought.

Maybe it was just a human thing to suddenly come out and speak another language for a split second. There was no reason why not, it wasn't like Sesshomaru knew of the strange ways of humans, including these futuristic ones. He watched Ben with hate in his eyes as he ate the pizza. Something to eat couldn't truly bring such a sigh from the boy, could it? He was probably overegaterating just to make Sesshomaru want to eat it more....it was working. Damn him!

Sesshomaru turned his attention away from Ben, and at the other slice that was nearer to him. A bite wouldn't hurt would it? Just looking at the thing made his mouth water, he swallowed it unnoticed. He wasn't even hungry for crying out loud! Letting out what could be thought of as a sigh of defeat that only lasted a mere second, Sesshomaru slowly reached for the peice he had been staring at. Though it seemed barbaric to eat it as Ben did, but there was no chopsticks, and it seemed that was the way it was supposed to be eaten.

Probably; all things human was barbaric. Glaring at Ben once, as if daring him to say a word he slowly picked it up as Ben had done, feeling the texture of the bread as he brought it to his mouth for a bite. Of course, he immediately put it back down after that, and allowed himself the time to actually taste what was now in his mouth. Human food...he couldn't believe what he had just done. Even as he tried to regret, he still couldn't help but like the taste.

But as stubborn as Sesshomaru was, no word was spoken, and no emotion showed to give away such a thing. He would never admit he liked it. Nor indulge himself with another bite, no matter how much he might still want another bite.

[Birdie]

Somewhere down the street, or rather, down quite a few streets, Esperanza was inside of a club doing one of the things she did best. This was drinking. She had an extremely high tolerance to alcohol. At the moment she gulped down some imported vodka. Once that was finished she went to the dance floor. Here she did another thing she did very well, danced. Or rather, something that could have been similar to a strip tease, though one kept their clothing on. This got a man or two around her, and she danced with them. They were much older, extremely sexy, and she was jail bait. Not that she cared.

Moments later she was drinking again. Something strong. She wanted to be drunk. None of the spell books held an explanation. She sighed rubbing her temples.

"Hey Essy, whats up. You're looking a little blue. Can I help?"

"Unless you know a thing or two about black magic you can't."

"I can mix a drink." he said.

"That helps too."

"And I know how to make a lady feel good," he continued, smirking.

"That could help too. Your place?" Esperanza asked, taking the drink the bartender handed her.

"Mmm, sounds good." he smirked. The bartender was named Nez. Nez was Esperanza boyfriend. Twenty-three, a college student, he had many girlfriends before, but none of them he cared for as much as Esperanza. She was a pretty little girl who made the prettiest sounds, and... He'd better stop thinking. He laughed a little. "Lets grab a bite to eat first, what do you say?" he asked.

"Fine, sure." He leaned across the counter and kissed her. She giggled. "I'll be waiting outside." She gave a small wave and exited. Once outside the club she took out a cigarette. She normally did not smoke. But she was so stressed out right now. She light the thin white piece of death.

Moments later it was pulled from her mouth. Esperanza was about to yell and hit who ever the hell took her cig. But she found Nez. "I hate you." she grumbled.

"You won't hate me so much when you don't have an asthmetic attack later. Can't have you fainting in bed because of that now can I?" he asked playfully. He nuzzled her neck, having to lean down a little bit to do so. He then grabbed her hand and they made their way to his car.

In less than five minutes they were at Nez's favorite restaurant. He hopped out of the car, opened the door for Esperanza. She also exited the car and the two entered the restaurant.

"Table or booth?"

"Booth please."

"Oh god, he's here!" Esperanza hid her face against Nez.

"Who an ex?"

"An ex I could deal with." She replied moodily as they were led to the booth. At least they weren't any near them. She cuddled up against Nez.

"You're really afraid of that guy, huh? What he do to you."

"Nothing, please, can we just get outta here?"

"That would be rude you know."

"I don't care." He hugged her close.

"Sshhh, now just a little bit of food. I really don't want you to go into a coma or anything." He began to play with her hair in a comforting way. He decided to order spaghetti. And when it came the couple fed each other.

"You know, I will always prefer my home town food." Esperanza told him with a small laugh.

"You have some sauce on your lips." He leaned fore-ward and licked her. She blushed.

"The hell is the matter with you." Her tone was one a person normally uses when they are going to slap another person. But her face held a complete opposite emotion.

"You babe." he told her. He was smirking at her. Her face, if he looked at in any longer. He turned away, quickly put down a tip, went and paid and pulled her out of the restaurant. She followed quite willingly.

"Can ya wait till we get to your apartment." She said with a wide grin on her face.

"I'll have to." He told her, pushing her up against the passenger side of the car, trying to kiss her and open the car door. The later was impossible because both of their body weights were pressed against it.

((GUESS WHO!!!!))

[sithhunter]

Ben sighed as he finished a slice of pizza...the pizza was cut into four parts so sesshomaru could have two and so could ben. HE saw sesshomaru take a bite and put the pizza back down."Oh come on." Ben said as he picked up his last slice "Your going to have to eat more than that or pepole are going to start thinking your a zombie or something." Ben chuckled as he continued to eat his lunch..man did it feel good to be backi...

[Lord Sesshomaru]

A...zombie? Sesshomaru looked at him with an annoyed look on his face. Truly, would these humans be so stupid to think that he was a zombie because he didnt' eat more then one bite? Was that odd now a days, so how many did the humans eat before they started accusing their fellow humans of being zombies? Ah well, it didn't matter. He let out a small breath, turning his head toward the window that looked out toward the street. Though he would like another bite, he decided against it.

Sesshomaru's impatience was growing while Ben ate. Wasting time eating when he should be showing him more of the future. The more time he spent here, the more time spent not being with Brigantia. Who knew what was going on while he was gone. Maybe she had returned from where she was, and had found him missing. Would she worry? Or because he wasn't there, would she be vulnerable?l

"Hurry up." Sesshomaru growled out, glaring at Ben for a few seconds before he went back to staring out the window. He didn't have much time left. This paranoia would take over him soon.

((....I have no idea))

[Birdie]

((IT'S HITOSHI SILLY!!! It's kind of funny you guys did not notice her enter the same resturante that you were in XD))

Esperanza gasped for breath, her fingers holding tightly onto his shirt. Her legs were weak, she could barely support herself. Nez frowned. Her scooped her into his arms. "Your too weak now. I can't do this to you." He murmued in her ear as she continued to pant heavily. This sort of thing was affecting her too much.

"No... this is... what I want..." She told him, her breaths slowly becoming more regular.

"Where is your inhaler?"

"In the back of the car, in my bag." He gave a small nod. He sighed. "Stay out here okay?" he said, giving her this as an order. She nodded, and while he went into the resturante she got out her inhaler. She breathed in the medicine twice then tucked it away.

Nez was out again with a small glass of water. She gulpedit down and thanked him. He took the glass back in. She waited patiently. That is, unti lsmething interesting happened.

He shoulders were grabbed and she was pulled into a rough kiss. She cried out, but it was muffled by who ever kissed her. She pushed against him weakly. She knew who this was. And whenever she was around she felt so powerless. She felt herself becoming weaker and weaker. She whimpered. He laughed, and tilted her head up so he could look into her face. Tears were begining to spill from her eyes.

"N-n-naraku.... please... st-stop. I b-beg y-y-you." She said in a breathless, fearful voice.

"Tsk. What would your dear members say if they found you like this, begging another gang leader for mercy." He shook his head. She asped as he forced her against a wall, her knee moved directly between her legs, making her feel hot despite everything. She moaned softly, attempting to push him off, with no actual effect.

Nez came back out, and what he found made him change. Not physically, but mentally. He curled his hands into fists, and ran at the sickingly beautiful man who was holding his girl against a wall. He aimed a punch at the man's face. He was sent sideways, but took Esperanza with him. She cried out in pain.

"Shit."

Naraku stood, wiping some blood from the corner of his mouth. "Now what sort of man are you? Hurting a woman like this." Naraku lughed.

"What?! And you think you were helping her?!" Nex demanded running at Naraku again.

"You won't be able to hit this face once I know you're there." And Nez missed and was thrown against the wall. His gang members created a circle around him and began to kcick him, making a game out of this 'sport'.

Esperanza stood. "STOP!" She screamed. She had found some courage. Naraku turned to looked at her . She slowly walked towards Naraku. What she was about to do was something the other her, Brigantia, would only do. She sometimes showed that little bit of weakness, acted like the girl in the past life she wished she could be. Gentle, caring and completely loving. "I'l... I'll go with you. I'll do anything you want. Just... Just stop hurting him." Her voice was quiet and soft.

Naraku's smirk widened. "All right. First kiss me ofyour own will." Tears began to spill from her eyes.

"Si." She said. She then rested her fingers gently agaisnt his chest and stood on her tip-toes. He had to bend down some so she could reach. She kissed his lips, her entire body shaking. Naraku grasped her around the waist.

"Kill him." Naraku said.

"NOOO!" She screamed, trying to get free, to go to Nez.

[sithhunter]

(Oh ho i know what to post!))

Ben stood up and glared at the scene outside...it was thoese dammend widow ganger's again. Ben looked at the man behind the counter "HEY tony!" Tony looked at him and nodded his head..tony dissapeared beinhd the counter and reapeared with a shotgun. Tony threw the shotgun at ben and he cought it and stormed outside.

BLAM was the sound of the shotgun when ben gave a warning shot..the gang member's immeditly looked at ben "THAT" Ben started to say and pumped the shotgun "IS ENOUGH!"

Naraku chuckled "So your the little trouble maker who shot doshi?" Ben smiled grimly and slowly walked forward "Damn right..dont tell me the little mutt is still alive?" Naraku shook his head and shited esper to his other arm "Well doshi is tough...but a shot to the in between the eyes is a hard thing to live through." Ben chuckled alittle "Good one less thing to worry about."

Ben slowly advanced to naraku....the circle of gang thugs parted...only for the reason that last week ben had killed naraku's left and man..ben had only killed him because it was either doski's life or the life of a cop...speaking of witch the cops should be here soon...not now but soon..ben walked beside the beaten man and kneeled down beside him and helped him up. "On your feet...i dont know who you are but if your a friend of esper your a friend of mine." Ben handed the man a pistol and nodded "If anyone moves..shoot him...the cops would thank you."

Ben walked in front of naraku...then stopped not three feet in front of him. "The only reason your thugs havent kicked me to a pulp is because there afraid...or there waiting for your orders....either one i dont care." Ben took the shotgun and placed the barrel at naraku's forehead "PUT ESPER DOWN NOW." Ben said as calmly as he could...

[Lord Sesshomaru]

Sesshomaru didn't know how he missed it. He didn't know how he could have been so distracted. Maybe it was the pizza, the overwhelming scent that seemed to drown out others farther away, but he could see it now, as Ben stood from his seat, spoke to a man and then had a gun in his hand. These guns weren't like the ones from the the demon lord's time. They seemed to be more advanced.

At first, Sesshomaru didn't know what was going on, but then he took a glance at where Ben was looking. He didn't know how he missed that either. He could see a group of men, kicking something on the ground, and another man with...

Sesshomaru was up in his seat without another thought, the sudden movement pushing his chair back and it hit the floor with a loud thud. They had Brigantia!...No, Esperanza. Who cares, it was the same person in the demon lord's eyes. The same soul, and that was all that mattered. He followed Ben quickly out the door and toward the group of men, the glare on the demon lords face vicious, and normally sent wolves running with their tails between their legs.

Sesshomaru took a more detailed look as Ben spoke to the man. He glared at the man who held Esperanza. Immediately he knew who it was. It was hard not to notice. Though there were some differences, it was instinct, and some minor similarities in appearance, he knew who it was. Naraku...or, Naraku's reincarnate. And this is what he had feared. Future, or present, the last thing he had wanted was for Brigantia to be in the hands of the hanyou. And here she was, his arm around her waist.

It wasn't maybe the same thing as it would have been in the present, but it was enough. And Sesshomaru was furious. He ignored everything else but Naraku, his slightly red eyes on that one now human Naraku. His shoulders tense, and his hands flexing at his sides, claws growing in length just a bit. Just wait...just one wrong move with how he touched her and his head will be flying!! He'll get to him faster then that stupid gun could.

[Birdie]

Nez immediatly dropped the gun. if the ploice caught himw ith one he would be in DEEP trouble. Esperanza would hate it if he got arrested again. Wait, Esperanza. He looked in her direction with his one good eye, the other too bruised to open. She ran to Nez. "Oh, baby. Are you all right." She gently kissed his lower lip. He gasped, she had rested her hand on his broken collar bone. She promptly apologized. "poor thing." She murmured, studying his eye.

Someone grabbed her wrist and pulled her up agaisnt his body. ALmost like ahuman shield. "You wouldn't hurt the lady." Naraku said with an almost evil smirk. "Now, you. You are not to touch that impure filth. For today at least. I want you to slap him, and I swear upon everything that means somethign to you I will not hurt him." Esperanza whimpered, but did as she was told. Tears rolled down her cheeks. She drew her hand back and a crack could be heard. Nez was sprawled on the ground.

"All right guys, you first." His gang began down the street. Naraku wrapped an arm aroudn a crying Esperanza's waist. He smikred at Sesshoamru, Nez and Ben. "No follwing." He wagged his finger at them, then he let his hand drift down to Essy's ass. He grabbed it causing her to gasp then make a pleasurable sounding sort of whimper.

"Please... don't follow." She paused, turning to look at the men. "This would not be the first time. It is best to just do it this way. I don't want you to get hurt any more. Please..." she was practically begging them. "Behind the moon my loves. Behind the moon."

Nez wiped blood from his lip. "Hn." was his reply. He watched Esperanza disapear. "All right. You two care about Esperanza right? I don't know about you though." He studied Sesshomaru. "She's afraid of you." he shook his head. "But it looked like you were about ready to kill that bastard Naraku. As they say, the enemy of my enemy is my friend... for now at least." Nez smirked. "You wanna save Essy right? Well then get your asses in the car! She said behind the moon and behind the moon we will go!" Nez slid across the hood of the car and into the drivers seat startig the great beast. ((aka the car))

[sithhunter]

Ben as ready to explode as naraku walked off with esper...THAT MONSTER...How dare he----huh? Ben turned to nez as he stood up and offered the ride...ben was surprised he could still stand...but hey the more the marrier. Ben pumped the shotgun and smiled "I think an ass kicking is farrr over due." Ben said as he got in the car and motioned for sesshomaur to follow him..

[Lord Sesshomaru]

Sesshomaru was furious right now! Not just at Naraku, oh no. At the man who seemed to have Esperanza's attention. This was not his reincarnate, so why was she with him? He didn't dare look at the man though, for once in his life questioning his control over his actions. To control the part of his mind that was screaming at him to rip the man to shreds. But Naraku had to be dealt with first. The man last. Sesshomaru watched as Esperanza disapeared, and the man and Ben were getting into the car.

What was behind the moon? And dammit, why couldn't he follow?! It would just take a second. One measly second to have every single one of those humans dead and have Esperanza in safe hands. But even so, he gave in with a small huff, follow Ben's lead into the car.

For a moment he forgot what was going on, his mind too interested in the inside of the car. It was a comfortable version of being in the belly of a beast. His eyes wandered every part of the car golden orbs taking in every little detail. Once he saw out the window, things started to come back to him, and he came back to the present time, and the current events.

With this close proximity, he couldn't help but notice that there was a familiar scent coming from the man that was in the front of the car, seemingly controlling its movements. And a new need to kill washed over him. Even through the cuts and buises it was hard to miss the similarities between this man, and another from the past.

Hitoshi....

No, no, no...anyone but Hitoshi. He would have Brigantia fall in love with anyone else, just not Hithoshi! That perverted panda, he wondered what all he had done to her. So many things that would haunt Sesshomaru for the rest of his life. He needed to die. The demon lord wanted to kill him so bad. Sesshomaru was practically shaking in his anger, his eyes startingly red as he fisted his hands at his sides, his claws cutting through the seat in which he sat, the loud ripping sound almost echoing through the small space in the car.

At least it calmed Sesshomaru a little bit. It was almost like ripping flesh. Just not...satisfying enough.

[Birdie]

"Hey, you. Quit ruining my seats." Nez said, glaring behind him via the rear veiw mirror. There wa sa soft growling note in his voice. Yes, Hitoshi. Liek the old Hitoshi he seemed to have no fear of Sesshoamru. He would willingly take on the demon lord, if it weren't for the fact that he had no reason to That is, unless he decided to continue his destruction of his car seat. About five mintues later and a bit of speeding and reckless driving they pulled up, into the driveway of a mansion. It was huge. It was beautiful. SOmehow it fit Esperanza.

Nez got out of the car. He did not wait for his companions before he ran to the door, and rung the bell. A maid in a pretty little loli outfit opened the door with a smile. "Ah, Master Nez, wonderful to -oh!" Nez rushed passed her. "I have guests, let them in. We're going to Essy's room."

"I'm afraid Mistress Esperanza is not home."

"I know, she's-" the rest of his words were lost as he ran down the hall.

Her room . It was delightfully... feminine. Not exactly something you would think Esperanzas room would look like. The walls were a light shade of lavendar, there were pictures of friends and such everywhere. Her covers were lavendar. Indeed, quite feminine. Above her bed there was a picture of the full moon. Nez jumped up onto the bed. He pulled down the picture and pressed a small button behind it. The bed moved, causing Nez to fall. Below the bed a set of stone stairs leading down could be seen. "Esperanza, you have too much free time." He said, going down the stairs, pausing onyl to see if the other two were coming.


The stairs were not very long. They went straight to a hidden room beneath her own. It was her own personal space. A place where no one could disturb her. Here the walls were a little more Esperanza-esk. Dark, deep black, pictures of thigns she had drawn, magical things, trees, people. Only two people were a reoccurance around the room. Brigantia and Sesshomaru.

Now Nez had never seen this before, but one could tell he was mad. His picture was down here, yet the picture of that man, the one she had so wanted to get away from was all over the place. And a woman was with him. A woman who was beautiful. He felt like he had seen her somewhere before. He touched pne of the pictures before turning on Sesshomaru.

[sithhunter]

((uhmm...i kinda have a writer's block....sesshomaru how about you?))

[Lord Sesshomaru]

((I don't. damn you and your writers block. Fine, I'm skipping you.))

Even with the man's comment Sesshomaru had not released his hold on the cushion. But he didn't do anything more to aggrivate the Nez. It seemed like hours before they finally reached their destination, and Sesshomaru couldn't stop thinking on how fast it would have been if he had just traveled on his own and not in this stupid, rediculous car. Of course, it wouldn't have worked since Sesshomaur had no idea where he would go. Okay, he did, but not to where Nez had taken them.

And as the group got out of the car, Sesshomaru was astonished by the large building in front of him. It was amazing how large it was. Whoever owned this place could very well be the lord of the lands they now stood on. Probably just as wealthy as he.

Sesshomaru wasn't given a lot of time to think on it, as Nez hurried his way up the home. The demon lord followed, watching the small conversation between Nez, and what seemed to be one of the servants at the home. Than they were inside, though Sesshomaru wasn't given a lot of time to actually take in his surroundings.

This was no time to look around, they had to save Esperanza. With that thought Sesshomaru turned and followed Nez down the hall and into a woman's room. It smelled of Esperanza. It smelled of Brigantia. These two scents were not the same, but instead had mixed, and now surrounded the oddly purple room they were in.

Sesshomaru had been paying too much attention to the scent, and had not even noticed Nez as he stood on the bed and did whatever he had to do to open up the secret stairway. It took Sesshomaru by surprise that Esperanza had such a thing in her room, but it didn't show.

The demon lord followed right behind Nez, taking the small steps down the stairs and stepping into the room, darker than the one they had just been in. But the scent was the same. Sesshomaru ignored Nez, almost forgetting that he was here as he looked around the room. A look of slight shock on his face as he looked at each picture. More specific, the pictures of him and Brigantia.

When the shock went away, he was left with the feeling of reassurance. He was still a big part of Brigantia, of her reincarnate. He was not forgotten He was satisfied for now, that Hitoshi's reincarnate was not a huge threat to his own reincarnate. Who he still needed to find so that Esperanza could stop being around the dumb panda reincarnate.

That's when Sesshomaru noticed that said panda was looking his way. He turned his had to meet his gaze, his eyes leaving the picture closest to him, and meeting Nez's gaze, his emotionless mask back in place. Though a little bit of his satisfaction showed just a bit.

[Birdie]

"WHY!?" Nez demanded. He held a finger out in front of him, it pointed into Sesshomaru's face. Now Nez was only an inch or two shorter than Sesshomaru and much slimmer looking. Obviously he was not a match for the demon lord but this did not stop him from glaring and using a threatening tone in his voice. "Why should you," he waved a hand in the direction of all the pictures "Be down here when she seems to afraid of you. Every time she sees you she begins to shake. She hides against me. Why are you down here when she hates you so much?" Jealousy could be detected in the looks he gave Sesshomaru. Nez's picture was not down here.

He turned on his heel. "What ever, we'll deal with this later. Stop smirking." Sesshomaru had not been smirking, he knew. But somehow Nez knew that with in himself the Demon lord had been smug.

He walked to a table filled with object Esperanza's father would surely kill for having. He was of the Shinto religion. Esperanza was obviously a practitioner of ancient ways. He thumbed through some notes until something caught his eye. A paper. The writing was scribbled. It was Esperanza's writing. It depicted her first dream with him. Sex. It was a dream with sex. Nez flushed with anger and embarrassment. He crumpled the paper and threw it behind him. He read the next one. This one was less scandalous. It was about just the girl. Brigantia was her name. Epsilon lived inside of that girl. It was complex and hard to understand, so he set it aside.

What came up next was some notes.


Dreams are often gateways to one's past lives. he repeated those words in his head. They had been the first words he had read in the notes. Esperanza's notes about dreams. Judging from the difference in handwriting the dreams had begun about six years ago. She did not begin to investigate them until recently. She had found a lot of information. Most of it about the whole past life things. Some of it about her experiences. With each passing dream she wrote how much more vivid the dreams were becoming. In one of the more recent ones she wrote that it felt as if she were completely leaving her body and living in the body of that other Esperanza, Brigantia. Esperanza seemed to want to be like that other her. Gentle and Kind.

More notes about how she was slipping away from her body with each dream. More about how little felt real anymore. And a picture. One hidden amongst the others. It was him. He was sure of it. Only... it didn't look like him at all.

He slowly moved from the table. He hung the picture on the wall, beside a mirror. He looked at the mirror for a long time. "Do you know of a trick Esperanza taught me a long time ago? She seems to know you very well, so I think maybe she told you at some time." He breathed on the mirror. Of course everyone knew how to do this. The steam of ones breath made words written at a different time appear. The words were as follows: ((It is read by Nez allowed))


"Nez,

You are most likely reading this because I am dead. I dearly wish I could have lived beyond my eighteen years. I must ask your forgiveness for all my sins. In life I could never ask you that because I was too proud. But a spirit can have no pride, I suppose. Anyway, You have followed the directions I have left hidden in all those love letters I had once sent you. In the left most drawer of my desk you will find what I have left you.

My dearest, live well, live strong." Nez finished the message on the mirror. It had taken a long time because he had to keep blowing on the mirror.

"This is weird," he commented. "Esperanza is only sixteen and has never sent me any letters. And dead? What is this all about."

He walked slowly to her desk in the far corner, opposite the mirror. He opened the drawer to the left. There were only three. The desk was more like a work table anyway. There were three work tables in the whole room. This was the only one with drawers.

One the drawer was a picture of the moon. He chuckled a little and opened the drawer. Inside was the letters which the mirror had talked about. There was also a book. This one held spells of her own creation. In the back was some very personal information. He skimmed through a frown growing on his face. He read it allowed to Sesshomaru and Ben.


"I do not know what to write. It is hard for me to say anything. I am so afraid. The mirror... I should smash it, but I can't. It showed me something I wish to never be. I am going to die at eighteen. On my birthday at exactly 6:15. The exact moment time I was born. I'm afraid. My heart will fail me at that time. It hardly seems to matter how well I take care of myself anymore. My future of a pre-mature death is set. I must live my life to the fullest." He paused. "That was her first entry.

"I beginning to feel the pains. My heart. I know it's fading. I can't understand why." He looked directly at Sesshomaru now. It was obvious he was blaming the demon lord by the look on Nez's face. He did not look back down at the book, but continued speaking. he had memorized what came next. "I asked the mirror. My one, the one who I had given my heart to since the very begging of my soul has not been reborn into this world yet. I was brought into being before him. Our cycle has been interrupted. My heart is completely Dependant on him. With out him my body can not deal, or work correctly. That explains all my physical ailments. But it means I am alone in this world. Even though I love Nez... Hitoshi... dearly, more than a brother yet less then My One, I can not help but feel that loneliness. What can I do? Maybe I should kill myself earlier than that. No. I can't. Though my heart, my souls yearns to by with My One, I can not do that to Nez, not now. He needs me. The mirror says I die at eighteen. It has never been wrong before. At eighteen I shall die. And then... then I can be brought back with my One. I shall wait patiently for that day. I will live life to the fullest till that time." Nez slammed the book shut. "it's your God damn fault she's dieing!" Of course this wasn't necessarily true.

He brushed his hair from his face, trying hard not to cry. "In two years she'll leave me. god... what will I do after that. Can I live?" he whispered to himself as he rummaged through the drawer. He suddenly with drew his hand. Blood spilled from his finger. It wouldn't stop bleeding. He carefully put his good hand in and brought out a slim blade. Sort of like a knife, only a little longer. With it a paper was attached. 'The Knife of Degeneration.'

Nez picked the book off the floor where it had missed Sesshomaru and hit the wall beyond him. He flipped through the pages until he found the Knife of Degeneration.

"The knife keeps wounds from healing. If it gets deep enough or a person has been cut for long enough his body will begin to fall to pieces." Nez stared at his finger for a long time. "I'm going to die." He said with a small laugh.

He stood. "Well, I think this will work. I think you guys can find yourselves something useful. Though I think Lord Fluffy here," he got the nickname from the pictures. In every one had had what could have been sheepskin draped over his shoulder. "Doesn't need anything I should think." He was tempting fate. In truth Nez wanted to die. It could be seen in his eyes, heard in his voice. His life was nothing with Esperanza. TO hear she was going to die. It was all too much.

[Lord Sesshomaru]

Of course, the smugness was still there, even after Nez had wanted him to stop smirking. With that deman, it only made Sesshomaru actually smirk, though it was almost a grin in his mind. The demon lord watched, curiosly, silently, as Nez went through papers, and began to blow on a mirror. He stepped a little closer, to see what that was supposed to do. He could slowly begin to see the writing that appeared, though he did not need to read it as Nez spoke. Sesshomaru didn't understand any of it.

How could she know when she would die? Why would she die? The demon lord clenched his jaw, listening intently, trying to understand everything that Nez was saying, what he was reading. These love letters and what not. He kept his golden eyes on Nez as he opened a drawer and started to read something off of paper. He met Nez's gaze, not wavering under his blaming stare. But he continued to listen. For some reason, Sesshomaru knew that she was talking about him. Her one. His eyes widened as his words reached his mind, his words, the words of Brigantia's reincarnate. The startling fact that...he was in this world yet. He had yet to be reincarnated. How could that be?

And because of this, Esperanza was dying. Because he had not been reborn. Why was this? Sesshomaru narrowed his eyes, getting rid of the surprised look that had come across his face. And for a moment, he, too, blamed himself for the fate Esperanza had.

Sesshomaru looked away from Nez when he shut the book. Telling him it was his fault...it was, wasn't it? But he had no control over it. If he had, his reincarnate would be here, it wouldn't be Nez that Esperanza would be with...it would be him. Sesshomaru shut everyone out for a moment, Nez's words reaching deaf ears as the demon lord thought over Esperanza over Brigantia's soul...could she truly not live without him?

Could he have lived without her, if he was in this situation? Of course, he was sure he could, it would just not be the same. He would live his life as he had before, before Brigantia had come to him. This whole tour of the future...he would never believe he would learn such things. If only he could do something...he didn't want her to die, and yet at the same time he felt that he was selfish enough to have her not have a full life to be with him again.

Including since she was spending it with Hithoshi.

The smell of blood brought Sesshomaru back to reality, and it was at that time Nez spoke of the knife, and called him lord fluffy. He narrowed his eyes at the man but did nothing more.

"Let us hurry, we are wasting time here. he growled. More time being wasted, more time Esperanza spent with Naraku.